I can feel you every day. You surprise me with a sign of your presence in various ways. My eyes are eagerly waiting to see you. My arms are willing to hold you. My happiness seems to have no bounds when I think of you. We are eager to welcome you to the beautiful world..
By now you have grown leaps and bounds from a tiny cell to the size of a Cabbage . I have seen you grow within me in the scans I went through. I can feel your movements right from your tiny little movements to your football matches to your sumersaults…and im loving all of these. My body has changed a lot in ways I never expected it to change but its all for u my lil one… honestly I cant stop thinking of u. i don’t care if you are a girl or a boy. I don’t care whether u look like me or daddy or both of us… All I want is u to be born healthy and well. u know, I already love u, right from the time I got to know that I'm pregnant.. I have prayed for u, tried for u, n now you are on your way. .
I'm getting all nervous, anxious thinking about how will it all turn out to be, how will I take care of u, how will I manage this new responsibility and excited to hold u in my arms, to feel u, touch u ,give u lots of hugs n kisses..I have been sick with nausea, tiredness, vomiting etc during the first n half of the second trimester but honestly I din care about it coz I know going ahead I will be meeting you. I don’t want to scare u but in reality I'm scared becoz before u we had one baby which did not make it as no heartbeat was detected.. hence daily I pray to God I'm ready to bear all pain but plz let baby be born healthy n well. I have been worried right from the time I conceived whether u r fine, r u getting the required nutrients to grow, how well are you growing etc…
The first time I heard your heartbeat was at 9weeks which was 110 n the doc said it heartbeat is a bit weak n I need to go for a scan again at 12weeks. I was so worried and paranoid after hearing this can't explain to u in words. Finally in the 12th week scan we heard your heartbeat strong to 168bpm. I thanked god for this.. the heartbeat was the only sound I wanted to hear then. Later then in the Ntscan got to see u again u had grown so big from what I had earlier seen u. I longed n waited excitedly for the scans coz I knew I would get to see u , everytime before the scan I would keep me eyes closed and fingers crossed n I still do the same. Once doc says see ur baby has grown then I open the eyes and simply just stare at the screen watching you move n I still do the same.
I want to promise u baby that I will do anything and everything possible by my to give u the best. I will make sure that I begin n end ur days reminding you that I love u. Right now even though u are inside me , my love for u is already so strong. I want to protect you, take care of you, nurture you, provide for you, and–above all–love you. but I am also determined to help you become an independent, smart, kind, and good human being who would have qualities of respect, empathy, kindness.
We both will take lots and lots of pictures, u r going to be my partner ur daddy doesn't like being clicked(but we both - as majority will pull him in also). We also would doing lots and lots of masti. If I continue to work then I promise u weekends will be only and only focused on u solely.
I will always be there with u n stand by u provided u r right and if u r not I will guide u on the right path. I promise to surround u not with gadgets but rather with nature, books n music. I will not shoo u away from any discussion rather will have an open discussion with u so that when in future u would want to share whatever would be happening in your life u would turn to me and share them with me. I will be your best of the friend and listen to u n share with u all my secrets n desires.. I'm sure there will be times when you would not like us n not approve certain things of us but during those times always remember we would always think of ur well-being n that we love u.. Because that’s how it is in our family, we practice unconditional love and acceptance no matter what the circumstances are and stand by each other..
I promise to show you love in all its best forms. I'll love you and your dad and our friends and families. With words and with actions I'll say it and I'll show it, and if just one of my promises can be kept, let it be this: that you'll feel it. A love so big that it fills you up, that it makes you feel safe.
I can't wait to meet you.
Love you already,
Mom #lettertomybaby #happypregnancy
P.s - I know it's too long but couldn't make it short... 😇