Part 4

This September I will complete 10 years in Mumbai, I stepped out of jet Airways with pounding ear pain sighhhh what a way to step into Mumbai... We went to Goa for our honeymoon, husband had to leave immediately to Taiwan and he stayed there till February 2010. As soon as he came we looked out for a flat closer to his office and I found my job at Reliance Communications and handled chat. I managed really well though I had 0 hindi knowledge, Now I can speak Hindi, ofcourse with some mistakes but I still speak, one day I'm sure to master it.

Life was good, we travelled to Singapore, Taiwan, Delhi, Agra, Shimla and few other places in South. As usual people started raising their eyebrows when there is no good news to share.. But we both kept calm because we were not ready to become parents so we continued enjoying our days with friends and family, But deep within me something was telling me "Why isn't happening?" We took things seriously and started taking treatment at the end of 2011 but with lot of wrong hands, I had an unnecessary Ovarian drilling and nothing worked out, kept changing the doctor and got pregnant in November 2012. Our joy has no bound and I was flying high.. Little I knew something bad is coming up.

I had slight bleeding and the doctor put me on few medicines, All of the sudden all my morning sickness, nausea and other symptoms stopped. December 5th 2012 I was scheduled for Viability of pregnancy scan where there was no cardiac activity, even after 10 days of injections and medicines, the cardiac activity was not found. I cried, wailed, shouted but nothing helped, I lost my baby which was always addressed as fetus by my doctor and husband but to me it was my baby. Years rolled 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016.. But nothing happened, my treatment and torture continued. I started putting of lot of weight and I refused to accept it's my weight which is worsening my pcod. I cried every month when the periods showed up, I hoped by next month it should happen but it dint. I lost it, I was barren and empty. My husband was my support system and to pacify me he will always say he doesn't want to be a dad. But I know he is longing to become a dad.. Ours is a close knitted family with lot of cousins getting married, their kids birthday, communion etc and gracefully we attended every function. I would die every time when they ask "What is the problem?" and some stupid suggestions but still we made sure that infertility should not affect our relationship with others.

A miracle happened in my life, An angel in disguise came into my life... The one who motivated me.. The one who changed me to stay positive and confident.. The one who uplifted me.. The one whom I always go in troubled times. . The next post is about that person... It is so important to uplift each other and help each other. When people praise me you are so helpful, because I was helped by someone earlier and I'm just passing it.

Do you have someone in your life like that? Can women help another women? Stay tuned...

Our happy days pics..

Priya Sood Swati upadhyay

I have my husband who is right person ...As you say say the support system..The gem of hearts...

Wow..Dear very nice...

Rebecca dear ur really very strong dear!!..big hug to u and god gifted u an angel athu😘😘 every thing comes at the right time ur gifted for ur patience..loads 9f love to u and athu

We also went to goa for our honeymoon 😃

Thank you Renuka. Yaar goa was such a boring place that time it was so hot.

You r such a strong woman to face the difficult situation.👍👍

Wonder women 👍 happiness forever

Its 1am and i must be sleeping because my sweet lil munchkin will wake up anytime for feed and demand me tirelessly but believe me the entire day this takeover was in my head, i knew i wouldnt fall asleep withour coming to the app and reading yours! Each and every word that you have written especially in this post echos with what my mom would alwsys tell me. I would always tell her i don't want kids soon i don't want and even after batul was born i used get iritated every now and then and she would alwsys tell you know there are so many people who seek babies for so many years, consider yourself lucky and embrace this journey of getting tired and yet being happy. Believe me evrytime that i get angry or irritated of the daily tiresomeness i go back, i recall what she said and i do recall a couple of people who have had difficulty in conceiving,some still having and pray and thank god for my kid and for everyone elses. Kids are a blessing. Of all the women who i met(who Have had difficulty in conceiving) i have found you too be the strongest and the most positive.
🌼yes! Women do help one another, somw judge, some act weirdly dramatic and bla bla bla but there are a good no of women i know who are gems and i would love to keep them forever.
You are onw of them! And a couple of others whom i cannot thank enough for getting the positivity in my times of crisis.

Nilofer shaikh it's okay to crib and sulk we are humans as well, even I do. But I love my daughter beyond words, sometimes my tired body makes me to say something weird. Hey you should write more.. You have that flair of writing.. Start your blog soon.

u r awesome dear ....yes mere har time me mere sath meri sister rehti he ...Madhavi Cholera..bachpan se ab tk ...😊

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