HONEST MOTHERHOOD
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Motherhood has been an emotional roller-coaster for me.
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💆One day I feel contented and blessed while the next day I feel so disappointed and ill-fated.
Actually, this journey has changed my Soul itself!🤐
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💆Life is spiralling out of control.
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I'm responsible to raise a Tiny-Dynamo whose list of needs is unending which sometimes engulfs my own existance.
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💆Somedays, I just long for who I used to be (before becoming a mom!)Especially when I have to calm down my son after he throws the 4th or 5th tantrum of the day!
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💆Many times, I feel jealous when I see an extraordinarily-energetic mom who comes to drop off her child to the school looking polished!😥 (when I have to actually end up throwing myself into my comfy yoga pants and a loose tee with a messy bun on my head!)
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💆Somedays, I just crave for casual social interactions like I used to have with my frinds in college days, in corporate/business world before becoming a mom.
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💆Sometimes, I wish to take a break from house chores and mess created by my son.😝
But If I do so, my OCD makes me feel dejected, hopeless, sad and defeated in life😫.
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💆Sometimes, I fail to bring that INFINITE AMOUNT of PATIENCE and PLANNING in my inbuilt ROWDY nature🙄 which I always try to hide from my child!🙈
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💆Somedays I don't feel like adjusting myself to my child's routine and everything feels so mundane then!
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🌿In this motherhood journey,
we can not set goals, measure results or success, get recognition or awards.
The rewards are hidden😁 and we just try to receive a SENSE OF SATISFACTION everyday,
as we get hugs and kisses and "I LOVE YOU" in BONUS😜 and that makes this journey so reasonable!😊
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I am a mom, I am full of faults, I have mommy brain. Many times, I just want to QUIT🙈and that is absolutely permissible!!
At the end, I know one thing that👉 No one else in the world can love my child as I do!!😍🤗🙌