I never knew how much i loved my mother untill i myself became a mother.

As a child and a teen and hated my mom for always babbling about so many things or rather everything "the way i dressed, my friends, studies, eating habbits, weight etc ". I didnt want to be around her as i didnt feel loved. It was just so sufficating all the time.;

With all the regrets i grew up and got married.;

Soon realisation started to occur of how much she cared. I never fell sick after my marriage coz if i did there was no one to take care of me. I was the one who was burdened. I remember catching cough or slighest of cold in my childhood and not getting out of the bed even fir getting an handkerchief. "Mimmi" was all i had to shout. And that also seemed really hard. And still i had complaints that she wasnt besides me and i had to call her.;

Realisations struck even harder when i became pregnant. I loved my baby though i didnt even touch him. I did everything i could in my 9 months to take care of him. I loved him even before he was born.

Finally!! After 23hours of intense labour my first born came into my hands. I loved ny mother in that moment. She was the only one who cried harder than me the whole time. If there was anyway that she could take away that pain from me she would have. Even on her.;

In that moment i knew how much she loved me and the only person who will love my baby more then i will. She is the only person on this earth who loves me more than herself. Who loved me even when i wasnt even born. She was before me in my hard times. When i was with her i didnt know what heartache or hard times actually mean.;

As a child i thought she hated me. I thought she didnt care enough. And so many things.But now as i grow as a mother i woudnt change a single thing as what my mother didi to me. I'll be lucky enough if i am able to do half to my children what she did to me.;

I LOVE U MOM MORE THEN EVER. AND NOW I CANT BREATH A SINGLE DAY WITHIUT YOU. THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE AND LOVING ME WHEN EVEN I HATED MYSELF.; #2under2mom #bbcreatorslclub