#momathon2 ;
****Being Free****
I was 21 when I got married. During those days, I would get upset by the thought that I won't be even able to wear what I want, would not meet my friends over the weekend, no outings, no short trips, no girls night outs.
I would feel like my freedom is being snatched away and that too without my consent. Because that was the definition of the word FREEDOM for 21 year old me. Nothing of the sort happened but I lost my precious moments thinking about my lost freedom!!

Few years gone. I got my degree. I was struggling to get a decent job. Again the same feeling striked back as I wasn't able to choose as per my choice but I had to choose as per my and everybody else's convenience. Plus gender played a big roll in not providing me with ample opportunities.

Finally I got something to hold on. It wasn't disappointing but wasn't making me happy either. I thought I lost my freedom as doing what you really want to, was the definition of FREEDOM for me at that time. I had spend sleepless nights thinking about.

Few months passed by and then we HAD TO DECIDE to be the parents. I felt like loosing my freedom all over again as for me, freedom had changed it's meaning. For me, at this time, freedom was the term related to monetary independence. I didn't have the opportunity to be monetarily independent which clearly meant I wasn't having any kind of a freedom. Though no body has ever asked me about where and how I spend, the meaning the word freedom had taken up in my mind was giving me restless days and sleepless nights.

Fast forward to today, when I am a mother of 2 YO boy, I wonder how the meaning of freedom has changed for me over the time and what meaning does it hold exactly at this point of my life?

So at this point of time, I often ask myself who am I? Why am I into this world? What's the purpose of my life? And the answers to all these questions gave me the true meaning of FREEDOM!!

FREEDOM for me is all about living in the present, enjoying every moment to the fullest, being true to yourself, finding your true self and being your true self!!! As a stay at home mother , I spend 24 hours with my LO. I enjoy being with him, I cherish each and every moment. I know the purpose of my life. I know why I am into this world I am grateful for all the good times and every pain and suffering. I can feel my worth. I Know for the fact that even if my outside world collapses, I will remain determined and create a world of freedom for myself!!

Finding the purpose of your existence on your own is what freedom for me!! Freedom is to share and care... freedom is to control myself without making a nuisance...!!

Freedom is to break every shackle which is holding me back to be true-me...!!
Freedom is to live your life in the very moment and the way you want - simple and sober!!

Freedom in broad sense is very difficult to define, it holds different meaning for everyone and this is what it is for me!!