#momathon2
THE REALIZATION


While back in my parenthood journey there were; days when all that mattered was a survival. It was a struggle to keep my head above the water.


I would see mum's doing anything for their kids, right from yummilicious receipes to diy crafts and I would feel good for nothing. I would see people doing parenting so seriously and here I was with my overwhelmed feelings and overburdened head with my own thoughts.



I was unhappy with my parenting. I was listening to everyone, but my kid. I knew he wasn't wrong completely, but I couldn't stand by him. Because I cared about other's opinion about him. I don't want to blame anyone but myself. I let them be intrusive and then I couldn't handle it. I felt ashamed when I shouldn't. I was harming relationship with my son for the sake of people.


So what I can do now?

I decided few things:
*Accept the fact that he is a perfectly normal 'toddler' and bound to behave like one.


*I; will learn to deal with my own emotions first and won't be anxious.


*I would let him grow on his pace without burdening him to walk other's path.


*Let’s not assume that someone else’s choices are statements about my own.


*I; won't let anyone's judgement comes in a way of relationship with my son.

* I would trust myself, my child and our choices first.


*I; am unique and so is my child. What works for me and my child may not be the same as other people. What works today may not apply tomorrow.;


*There is; no right or wrong choice in parenting. Just choice. Choice that works and doesn’t. That is all.


* I will be thick skinned to judgements.;


* I decided to deal with it once and for all.


* I promised; myself that bad things won't happen again. Next day would bring the new and the best in me. More strong. More positive.

Afterall, parenting is not about controlling your child but to control your self as a parent.