I have been wanting to write a piece on this for a while & friends of mine know how filmy I am. I would not shy from saying that my life is 70mm with all the elements of a hindi masala movie in it. So taking this cue I recall that Shahrukh Khan immortalized the dialogue, "Itni shiddat se maine tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai, ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse milane ki koshish ki hai. Kehte hain agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaaho, toh poori kaynath tumhein usse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai…" in Om Shanti Om. It was something I did not understand & dismissed as another super exaggerated romantic dialogue. However it is ironic that in the same year the movie released, my then boss spoke about 'Design Of Intent'. I just got to know it is an engineering term. The context was a small piece of artificial jewellery I had dropped on the campus of IBM in Hyderabad, this is when I worked for a Technology Company as Lead Business Development. I found the jewellery piece on our way back...
The first time I set my eyes on a goal I was 15... the goal was to own a home in Andheri, Mumbai. I gave myself 10 years on that afternoon in 1990 when I was replying for my father who was facing a nasty jibe by someone who lived more than half his life off my Dads earnings. I am one of those who does not knock down road blocks, I find a way around, deviate, digress & change my route to reach my set goal. This concept of 'Design of Intent' actually did not manifest in me also coz I believed it was for people who broke down barriers & I just changed paths which was the easier option!
When I look back on life, I may have some regrets but I guess they are too small to bother about anymore. And since that first dream I have seen how the universe has dropped bits & pieces to complete my puzzle always. I have struggled to achieve everything & by that I mean for whatever I have today. From my first home, to getting my career in line, coz I totally messed it up for the first goal, getting married, having kids, motivating & supporting Rakesh (the husband) to start Prakrti... gifts of nature everything was a massive, heart wrenching initial struggle but eventually people walked into my life & the puzzle fell in place. To an onlooker it looked magical & 'lucky'... only I know the pain I endured, the sleepless nights & the efforts I put in before the pieces started looking like a picture.
Why am I writing about this today?
I am writing today coz I realize nothing fell in my lap, I yearned for it so earnestly & worked very hard to make it happen but I did it with a smile on my lips & a glint in my eyes so very few really know my journey. Today when Rakesh posted a short note on Prakrti... gifts of nature & its journey I sat back & thought it through on what was the trigger to make it happen. The answer was simple 'Sincere Efforts' & 'Design of Intent'...
I thank everyone who walked with me ever for whatever duration in my journey, physically, emotionally or merely by just praying for us! It feels good to know that people can still love unconditionally in a world where almost everything is materialistic in nature. We might have traversed more than half our life but the best is yet to come... A new journey, a new challenge & a few exciting deviations later we will achieve our new goals!