There are many moments .But when talking about a moment.I would like to share this .
I am a working mom and It's about three years back when I only had my elder son , who was 5 Years old; . I got nominated for an official course and It's duration; was 2 months in Allahabad . I was in diallema that should I go for the course or not. Then I decided; I should finish this now itself as we were planning for the second one ( we got third Also😄). Because leaving one child is still better than leaving two .
I used to prepare my son for that period and He would; always; say "don't go mumma ". It was really painful. My in laws came to take care of my son . I was in tears as I never left my son; like this before . Even when I had another official course , I took my son(; 1 year old; that time ) & mom-in-law with me for the 4 months course in Allahabad. But this time course was tough so I was unable to take him with me.
The day I left my son, was very difficult. He went to play outside; saying Bye and; I left home thinking" Is he; angry or sad ? Why did not he stay to see me off ".
Even I saw my husband crying for my son (may be for me 😉) . I was crying badly . Even from station I wanted to come back and hug my child . I thought he will forget me and will not care for me as he rarely talks to me over phone.
In the train I was crying inconsolably. I was travelling alone & copassangers; were all staring at me. I remember I cried for hours. when I reached training centre, I got busy but I was always thinking about my son. I knew that my in laws would be taking good Care of him; but as a mother I was worried. My son did not talk properly on phone, like I wanted to know what he does the whole day, how he liked his new school , about his new friends and above all; If he is missing me?? But he was never responding that way ;; two or three lines maximum and the conversation is over that too once in 2- 3 weeks. It pained me a lot . I felt pity on myself as a mom.; On his behaviour sometimes my mil said " I always tell him to talk to you but he does not listen". I don't know why but it did hurt me. It made me think as if my motherhood requires other's recommendations. I knew my mil said it in good sense but I felt bad .
Two months passed and then came the day I reached home.I was apprehensive about how my son will react. May be he will ignore me or he might have forgotten me. With that anxiety I entered home. He hid himself shyly behind the door. I was in tears. When everybody left us. He came to me & asked " mumma, why are you crying" wiping my tears off . I replied " I am so happy to see you again ".
And then he started kissing me all over my face . I can never forget and the scene is still afresh , he kissed me over 40 times.; He told me in his way that though he was not talking to me over phone , he missed me so much. Than we had long talks. I still feel mesmerized with the beauty of motherhood that it does not matter if you are working or not, your child will love you for the warmth the affection he gets in the quality time you spend together. Distance can not lessen love, It proved again...Love you my child 😙