Hi everyone... Want to share something with you all.... I had a C Section delivery on 2nd July and unlikely my Gynae released me very next day morning.... I came back to my Sasural as my mother is not physically fit and don't have domestic help 24X7 so didn't want to disturb her. Here in my in laws place my MIL is super busy whole day and my FIL is also not physically fit to take of mostly he can sit when I need to go to loo to pee :). We have domestic help who can bring my 4 times food ( evening my husband carry though) as my kitchen is downstairs. My doc didn't prescribe any restriction on food or movement (I had normal food in hospital on the very day afternoon after giving birth in morning). My Lil one was ebf and I was like feeling mad as as soon as I put him down he would scream at night and day time he was sleeping (I know it's normal now but back then I thought this is a problem). My LO bilirubin got high 16.3 and his Paed suggested for phototherapy.. We both admitted then the tragedy happens... Nurses in NICU asking for expressed milk but while hand expressing I get 5 - 10 ml (they don't have pump :() then they started saying u don't have milk supply so ur baby's weight got down and he is having jaundice.... My LO BW 3.08, that time it went to 2.64 as per them on 9 th day. Still I continued BF and they got irritated as my baby sucking for 45 mins and other baby's they are feeding in mins. I also observed one mother who is pumping like huge quantity of milk. I got dishearten. Still feeding baby almost 1-2 hrs day and night and get him home 2 days back. He didn't pee for 10 hrs and that triggered me and with doctors permission gave him FM and with in 30 mins he peed. I lost every confidence. Here I want to mention I have medical condition (Underdeveloped Breast) which now I searched on Internet and found can be reason for low supply. Any how my body also collapsed with all that stress and tiring nursing sessions and giving FM to my baby with all guilt. I have asked many questions to few group members or posted regarding the supply. Frustrated with my situation I stopped enjoying motherhood and worrying about BM & FM all the day and night.i forget to be happy. But now I don't want to let this beautiful time fly with overthinking and not enjoying time with my baby. FM or BM (Whatever amount I have) I will give to my baby and not worry about ebf and all which taking me to depression..... Now my baby is happy and I am relaxed.
I think many mommies having such issues... But want to tell first you have to take care of yourself so that your baby be healthy and happy. FM or BM don't think only bond with your Lil one and cherish the moment.