I am determined!
My lo is gking to be 2 months this 5th of August and my breastfeed struggles are still on.
It was ramadan and my mom and mil both couldn't be besides me for the whole time at hospital and so my sis and husband were staying back and what i suffered at the hands of ignorant staffs and my carelessly umprepared and unaware self that i till date curse mysrlf for not having educated myself of breastfeeding during pmy pregnancy days.
I had delivered naturally but the pain of stitches and the entire previous night's struggle in pain had made my body weak and i had gone into some kind of painful state that i begged not to be disturbed or even talked to. I even ignored my lil angel that had blessed my life.(i am guilty to the core) and the bospital staff in turn did not make any effort to put the baby on me or get me feeding.
When i came in my senses they asked me to try however there was no trace of heaviness in my breast nor any drop of milk from my breast. The day went by and the nest day the shift maushi tried to help me but left midway and i was left on my own to struggle. With no energy and disaapointment of not seeing any milk and the nurses declaring it to the dox tht i dont have milk i was heartbroken and just kept being sad.
Came home on the 4th day and the same story went on until many days. So many ayurvedic supplements, medicines, pumps, etc didn't help me any bit. But i kept going. I tried latching my baby and when finsly i came back to my mother's home on 19th i had my friend Renuka Pillai and her mom visit us and that day onwards they started helping and me along with these guys and my mother and sisters started having everything natural that promised milk supply. Meanwhile renuka offered to feed my baby her milk.
Here slowly i started getting milk in drops and until today i am struggling. Jeera, masoor dal, daliya and whatever that promises milk is on my list. My jigar ka tukda is struggling with me too and has struggled for the most basic need of hers to have her tummy fed with her mom's milk. I am at times sad,overwhelmed, tired, exhausted, confused yet motivated on shifting to exclusive breastfeeding one day before she turns 6months! Her top feeds have now reduced not very liberally but yes i give her topfees only when i am completely exhausted of her lacthing on me. My family has been of great support.
And there are friends and family who has been with me in my struggle and one them is Rebecca Prakash . This mother who is my 'go to human' has been there to answer all my queries,to motivate me, to accompany me to her doctor to find a solution to my problem, to keeping an update on how my consultation with the lactation consultant is going on to just drop in home for a mom to mom feel-good time.
I am glad, happy and content that i am doing my best to feed my baby.
I thank all the moms who have shared their breatfeeding stories. Believe me i have read all and bookmarked all and lesrnt from them all.
Thanks #babychakra for keeping up and getting moms to involve so much in sharing and becoming a community of so much help and motivation.
A big thanks to Naiyya Saggi and the team to always keeping the right track going in on the app.
Thanks to all the moms Rebecca Prakash Vidya Rathod Parul Johari veda Khushboo Chouhan Swati Upadhyay and all others who tag me to breastfeeding and other imp feeds which i may otherwise have missed. #bestforbaby #bestisbreast #breastfeedingstory