1 in 4 women experience a miscarriage at least once in their lifetime.⁣

1 in 100 women experience recurrent pregnancy loss.⁣

Never once would I have ever imagined myself being a part of the 1 in 4 or 1 in 100 category. Ask me three years ago when we started trying to grow our family what I thought my life would look like today, and I can honestly say that this is not at all what I had pictured.⁣

I thought this would be easy, I thought that it would just come naturally and exactly how I had planned it to be… but clearly god had different ideas for us.⁣

You never really realize just how big of a challenge something is, until you find yourself in the thick of it just struggling to get through. I know for myself, I truly underestimated just how much of a fight this all would be. And I never would have thought that simply trying to bring a baby into this world would bring forth this much heartbreak and loss.⁣

Finding yourself in those 1 in 4 and 1 in 100 statistics can be a pretty lonely place to be. Looking back on our first miscarriage, I remember feeling so alone and having no one else to turn to. I suffered in silence, and I felt ashamed for what I was going through. I blamed myself over and over for what had happened, even though I knew deep down none of this was my fault. I simply fell victim to the stigma that “you just don’t talk about miscarriages” so I stayed silent.⁣

But today, I decided to change that.⁣

October 1st marks the beginning of “Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month”. This is a time to look back, remember, and honor all of our beautiful little angel babies who are no longer here with us earth side. No matter how long our time with them lasted, each of their stories matters and deserves to be heard.⁣

To all of my loss mamas out there, I see you. I know the pain you are feeling, and the hurt that is filling your heart. So this month is for you, and for all of our beautiful babies… until the day we meet again, I promise we will never forget you.