cervical incompetence

 
I am not sure if many of u know about this ... cervical incompetence is a medical condition in pregnency where the cervix(lower end of the uterus) begins to shorten , bevomes thinner and dilates long before the time of  actual delivery date...in this condition the uterus is not able to hold the baby due to weak cervix...tis is seen in 2 nd trimester.. u ll only come to knw u have this condition after one or two abortions that too in the 5 or 6th month.

I had read about this during my med school days but never gave much interest as it was not that important in exams. 
After marriage i got pregnant with my first baby  , everytn was fine till the 5 month  scan where my cervical lenght was little less..me and my doctor thought it will usually increase later in pregnancy but after two weeks , one nite when i was 19 weeks pregnant i started bleeding, like my menstrual cycle.  i rushed to my hospital, scan was done , i hv dilated my baby is almost comin.Even though we all knew i had 1 percent chance of saving my baby with a cervical stitch , i went to a bigger hospital with better facilities which is 4 hrs from my place. i was immediately taken in for a cervical cerclage(stitch). From then 1 week of horrifying days of complete bed rest , iv,  injections etc etc, we did a scan again ...this time its still come down, i was again taken in for a recerclage, again back to icu and 1 more week of nightmare. on my 22 nd week that night my water broke and i was in labor.. i knw i wont get to even c my baby with whom i had long conversations , whom i actually dreamt doin practically everytn. i was devastated but i wanted it to get over soon...again i underwent a horrible labour from cutting my stitches to let the baby out ..i came back home empty handed . i was back to normal by 1 month. i joined work and i miss my periods. i was pregnant again! so this time i was on bed rest from start..on injections , medicines and a cervical stitch at 11th week, but at 19 th week my cervical length was shorter , my os was open. Again the same nightmare and i lost my baby at 22 nd week. This time i lost it completely.  i felt hopless as a women, but my husband was so strong., and supportive.  He started searching for a solution. i was very angry at myself,  being a doctor i knew nothin, being a doctor many times i never imagined what a patient undergoes, i never knew how a smile or an assurance from a doctor or a nurse calms the patient(wen i was hospitalised i used to ask d nurse wil i get my baby , has ppl got babies after this much complications,? etc etc even though i knew wat my outcome wil be) . i got back to work in 3 months time but this time i was not just a doctor , i was more understanding,  i take each and every thing of the patients complains seriously, never ignored any patient  especially a pregnant women . i was a better person. so i thought maybe  god wanted  me to be a better  human bein , he wanted to make me ready for bein a mom . i was so sure i wil be a mom soon.
Then my hubby and me decided to do a Transabdomibal cerclage where the knot is tied very much higher.. but this procedure is not done by many doctors in india, but we went for it. Got it done anyways... i got pregnant after 6 months and delivered a healthy baby .
This is my story to become a mother, there are so many women tryin day and nite to be a mother. i just want to tell u have hope, there is solution for everytn,  u just hv to run behind it... i always feel faith and prayers do work. many a times we take what we have for granted but never thought what if we never had that. Never take our children for granted , there r thousands praying each day just to be a mother. we r the blessed ones!