I was looking for a word that can describe my present situation.  So that's the word Ambivalent. 

I am into my last month of pregnancy and so many emotions, questions running into my mind. Although I have prepared myself for the delivery(normal or cesarean) but still having doubts about it. I have read a lot about the labour pain and all delivery related stuff but I can't rest my mind that everything will be fine.  It's not only about the delivery dilemma but also what after delivery.  I am gonna be a mother. I was waiting desperately for this phase but now I am tensed and nervous.  I will be loaded with a huge responsibility and I am perplexed will I be able to handle it.  Will I be able to do justice to my baby? These are just few questions I have mentioned but there is a lot more disturbing me. 
I guess some of the mothers out here must have gone through this phase.  Please post your comments how to deal with the situation.