Its past midnight n i can't sleep... Difference between my sleeplessness during n after pregnancy... Today my kiddo is sleeping... During pregnancy he was awake rolling n kicking in my stomach... Unknowingly my palms touch my stomach n i feel the emptiness... N i smile as all those memories come back to me... Some were bad... The morning sickness which came in the evenings mostly... The unbearable hot flashes... The tiredness n fatigue... But most of them were beautiful the first time i went for an ultrasound n saw that little blip... My dingro... The excitement when i told my husband who was miles away... N flew them to take me back home... The extra carefulness while i walked on the road or park alike... The untimely hunger pangs n food cravings... The first time i heard dingro's heart beat... The moment i saw him move on screen... Feels like a dream today...

N den the day i held him... He was mine always but dat day he became reality... That day i became his mom... His maa...

I turn towards him kiss him on his forehead n i see the emptiness has disappeared, he has vanquished any n every devoid of my life... He has made it whole...

I miss the pamper i got from my husband during pregnancy but its completely fine as the devil who gets it... Is n will always be a part of me...

My son

My Dingro

My Aarhaan