MOM INSIDE ME CHANGED
It was a most awaited day, i was about to undergo the C-sec. As my first baby was a normal delivery for this I had many goosebumps. when the doc first suggested us for a c-sec my thoughts about this delivery scared me. WHY is it this way this time? what have i done wrong? was I lazy? but anyways it was just a phase.. later I cooled down.
It was my first time on the OT table, i was never so nervous. surrounded by so many peple and so many sharp tools, a shiver ran down my spine and an injection too :).
We were not very particular about the gender of the baby but there was surely curiosity in general. As my first chind was a boy we wanted a girl. As later on many people complemented me saying .... "complete family". Though I personally would not have minded a boy again :).
And the moment when i hear her first cry, it was so soothing so sweet so fragile, something in me changed forever.
I was always an over emotional (read crying at movie climax :) )and a cautious mom, i never let my son go to play in park alone, i was extra cautious about his safety at school, i always spoke with him about good touch- bad touch, i made him learn our home address, parents names there workplace names and our phone numbers first thing when he started talking however whenever I prayed to God I always prayed for his happiness and health.
but when i prayed and thanked God for blessing me with a daughter the first work came was "God please keep her safe every day as she grows up", is it so unsafe, why my unconscious mind keeping track of things going wrong with females around us, why i didnt say health and happiness first.... is it this to be a mother to a daughter? being worried all the time, now it makes sense why mom calls me so many times, why dad used to pick me from my late night drama practices why were they hovering on my head all the time... all that was for my safety.
I have decided to make my daughter strong, not just mentally but also physically. But I just wonder will I stop worrying even then..........
Sincerely wishing the worlds becomes a safer place for everyone.
#supermommy
It was a most awaited day, i was about to undergo the C-sec. As my first baby was a normal delivery for this I had many goosebumps. when the doc first suggested us for a c-sec my thoughts about this delivery scared me. WHY is it this way this time? what have i done wrong? was I lazy? but anyways it was just a phase.. later I cooled down.
It was my first time on the OT table, i was never so nervous. surrounded by so many peple and so many sharp tools, a shiver ran down my spine and an injection too :).
We were not very particular about the gender of the baby but there was surely curiosity in general. As my first chind was a boy we wanted a girl. As later on many people complemented me saying .... "complete family". Though I personally would not have minded a boy again :).
And the moment when i hear her first cry, it was so soothing so sweet so fragile, something in me changed forever.
I was always an over emotional (read crying at movie climax :) )and a cautious mom, i never let my son go to play in park alone, i was extra cautious about his safety at school, i always spoke with him about good touch- bad touch, i made him learn our home address, parents names there workplace names and our phone numbers first thing when he started talking however whenever I prayed to God I always prayed for his happiness and health.
but when i prayed and thanked God for blessing me with a daughter the first work came was "God please keep her safe every day as she grows up", is it so unsafe, why my unconscious mind keeping track of things going wrong with females around us, why i didnt say health and happiness first.... is it this to be a mother to a daughter? being worried all the time, now it makes sense why mom calls me so many times, why dad used to pick me from my late night drama practices why were they hovering on my head all the time... all that was for my safety.
I have decided to make my daughter strong, not just mentally but also physically. But I just wonder will I stop worrying even then..........
Sincerely wishing the worlds becomes a safer place for everyone.
#supermommy
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this is so touching! Thanks for sharing ☺️
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Monika Sourabh
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31 Jul 2017