#MommyTakeOver

My parents did not speak for some time. But, I continued to make efforts, which finally paid off and things got better.

Between, all this tension, what kept me sane was my JOB. I am working in Public Sector Bank, which can be boring but as I am Marketing and Advertising professional, my part of the job is challenging and creative everyday don’t like routine and like to have a new day every day!I was great at my job and everybody appreciated my work!

So as I was doing well in job, I did not plan for baby for three years. Then suddenly I realized pressure is high and everybody is asking about Baby Plans. From, family, friends, relatives to even colleagues in office seemed to be waiting for us to have baby.

After trying and failing for 6 Months, I got desperate for baby and thought something is wrong with me. I always thought, to have a baby is no big deal, just do the needful and baby will arrive. LOL.

I was proved to be wrong and found myself struggling. I went for all find of fertility check-ups and routine check-ups. Both of our reports came out to be normal and doctors suggested to have patience and continue to try.

I cried every month. In between I got pregnant once but miscarried in 6th week itself for no known reason. I was told it happens and is very common. We took a break of 3 months tried again. 1.5 years went by, trying to conceive. Sadness Again. YE JEEVAN HAI…..

To escape the reality, we planned a trip to Himachal Pradesh. I applied for leave, packed my bags and waited for the trip to start. We went to Amritsar, there I prayed for baby, then we proceeded Macleodganj, Kullu , where we did River Rafting, Manali mein Paragliding and then to Shimla .

The last leg of Journey was planned in such a way that last day, I was supposed to be my PERIODS. But, I didn’t get, I waited anther day, once back. Still no periods, I was getting suspicious by now! However, as it was my Birthday, I didn’t want to get a negative test, so I decided to not to check. The next morning after Birthday, I went to office and while returning back, bought pregnancy Test kit…N Voila! It was Two Dark Pink Lines. I was PREGNANT!

Due to hectic schedule and my adventure activities on the trip, this was the only month when I was praying to get my periods but God has some other plans.

So, I was both scared and happy, the next day we went to see our gynaecologist and after her confirmation, our happiness knew no bounds. Due to my previous miscarriage and extra cautious nature, I did not continue my office for long and took break after few initial months of pregnancy.

Pregnancy was cake walk for me. I was happy, being pampered at home. I missed my Job, but did not want to take any risk so avoid as much as possible. I continued to be in touch with my colleagues and Bosses, so that I don’t loose track of what’s happening the Market. I knew that if I have to continue your Job after baby, I needed to continuously keep updating my knowledge in field and do not become complacent,

My mother suggested to have delivery in Lucknow as there would be no one to take care of me in Mumbai and she may not be able to come due to her poor health. My in laws are also lil old, so couldn’t have been fully depended on them. However as my baby was due in February, I knew, it would be winters in Lucknow and really cold temperature. I don’t like such cold temperatures and vaise bhi as I wanted Vikram to be with at every stage of pregnancy and delivery I decided to deliver in Mumbai.

My in laws were around there with me in last month of pregnancy and one day while I waited for the pain to start...my WATER BROKE...and began painful and WORST part of my life ..

Yes, What was to be Happiest Days. Turned out to be Nightmare! Why?