So in the final leap of working towards my weight, I have finally joined the gym. I'm far from slim, or even Medium. I still buy clothes from plus size fashion sites but I'm lesser than I am before. That is enough for me, I'm losing day by day and I'm putting all my effort. I'm working out, I'm eating right and I try to keep a happy and healthy self.
My biggest fear by far has been of exercise. How will I deal with the pain? What will I wear? What will people think of me? Will I be able to take their stares?
But the reality is very different.
Pain, yes, there is pain but mild. The trainer knows if I am in much pain I will skip so he makes sure he takes me up gradually.
But when I went to the gym and expected people to look at me and laugh, they didn't. They didn't because they had their own self to look to and admire in the mirrors. They were too busy with other things to look at me and laugh and that was; relief.
I decided to not think about how the fit look at me, but more of how the unfit will look at me. An unfit person may probably admire that I finally made this move and took the step of joining the gym. That's precisely how I must see myself and not be embarrassed. My body is my jome, if I don't love it, who will? I have to stop getting embarrassed about nothing. And that's how I came over my reluctance to Ho exercise and join a gym. It's just been 2 days yet hut I'm going to make it for long. Wish me luck ❤️❤️❤️
08 Feb 2018