Hi!! I had cesarean on 29 Dec. Since then I don't feel anything real. I am not even recognizing myself. I don't feel that I have become a mother and the baby is mine. I am suffering with depression. I am not having good sleep as I have to get up and feed him every two hours and burping for 20 min each time as told by doctor and other baby works also. I can't even sleep at day time as he cries most of the time. He can't latch on my nipples so I can't breastfeed him. I take out milk(I can take out very little) and give him nan-pro. I feel very guilty for it and desperately want to breastfeed him or give him expressed milk. I feel to end my life. I have suicidal thoughts many times a day. My husband is very supporting and loving but I am living with my nani. She feels angry when I sleep anytime ither than after food. That time also if baby cries I can't sleep. In my frustration I fight with husband a lot on WhatsApp. He tries to be calm and understands me but when I fight a lot he also becomes frustrated. I know it's post pregnancy depression but I don't want to take antidepressants because I want to give my milk to baaby. What other treatments can be there and around how much they can cost me? Please help I really need help.