Life Can Never Be Full But It Can Be Filled
Last night pretty late, I had a fiery verbal fight with the Mister. Siddy Boy too got afraid I guess as he suddenly went calm. It was then that I realized, Momma u gotta change your ways. Even fighting has to be polite now.
Nonetheless, the frustration came from having watched Piku, the Soojit Sircar film and somehow I watched that on impluse to check if I miss my dad. Most of u guys know that I hadnt even cried much on losing him and I wanted to check if I have self control.
But no I broke. Not in front of hubby but in the loo. I had to fake a pee break to cry. And crY I did.
All the memories came to bite me and I lost my cool. I next shouted at Mister for things he perhaps never even did.
Out of the corner of my eye, I Saw Siddy trying to hold my hand.. As if trying to sit me down... just like my dad did whenver his bad tempered pampered brat of a daughter lost her calm..
And I stopped immediately. I didnt sleep all night. I didnt have a feeling. I felt so useless. My Siddy looks like me and I look like my Dad. Is that why Siddy brings back Bauji to my mind daily..is that why I feel so filled despite my life not being full?
I have been a bad daughter at times. I fought a lot wth my Dad but we loved each other like mad. Will me and Siddy have that awesome rapport!?
The clock ticks.. And I await my answer.
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Satarupa you know child knows what you are going through... And yes your dad will always be with you... If you want to cry anytime just cry your heart out and let it go...This is just the way.
And yes...Now you need to make arguments politely... I really don't know what to say or what I m typing...
Definitely yes...You and Sid are going to share a strong bond...
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Goodness me he grew up really in no time n I think the same when I look at my little pirate too. Rab Rakha!
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First off , the pic of siddy looking up at you is just one of the most heart warming pics I have ever seen. He s really one of our fav BabyChakra babies .. we ve known him from before he was born after all and he s turning out so adorable. Secondly, you are such a strong woman. Really , hats off to you. The way you are handling loss and birth : can’t even imagine dear Satarupa. It’s ok if you loose your cool once in a while. With such strength, you will need an outlet na ? Don’t be so hard on yourself dear .. so Much love coming your way.
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Oh and of course! How can you and siddy not have an amazing bond!! You are clearly an amazing mom and siddy Baby is lucky to have you! ❤️
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Yes Sonam..babies do know the mommy..And I feel so okay to cry knowing it will make me stronger. Sonam patel
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It feels so good reading this Naiyya Saggi I hope Siddy can meet u some time.. and of course i will introduce u as an icon to learn from.
I am lucky to hv you and know u
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Like mom's babies too know what their mom or even dad is going through and their silent support is sometimes the biggest support a person can get through a breakdown..that unconditional shoulder they give to lean on and cry..their holding of fingers and caressing a bit is enough for a mom to bounce back..siddy is your biggest strength Satarupa B Kaur may be he is God's way to give you back uncle's love..
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